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Wednesday, June 18, 2008

broken baby = broken mommy



being 32 weeks pregnant has it's perks. i get sympathy at the grocery store, i am currently not on a crash diet, and i am enjoying getting ready for number two. however, being pregnant also means i am SUPER EMOTIONAL!!! i was so proud of myself at the hospital. i went into nurse mommy mode. i was thinking with a clear head on a mission to get the answers i knew i needed. then, bryan left to go back to work and while i was waiting, rocking, my punkin' two year old all alone in a sterile hospital room... it hit me... like a mac truck... my baby broke her collarbone. woah! wait a minute! just yesterday we were in the pool, splashing, jumping off the side, and now this. (if there were sound effects on this... cue screaching brake noise) i do know it could be worse! but, this is tough. last night we were up between 2-5 trying to get her comfortable. tough! then all day, if she cried, i cried harder. she finally looked at me with her huge eyes, filled with crocodile tears and said, "mommy, why are you cying?" (yes, she says "cying" not cRying) i told her i hurt when she hurts. i think i am finally learning the tough part about parenting. trust me, i know i have a LONG way to go... but you physically and emotionally hurt when they hurt! bath time is really hard! the entire time she is screaming "owwwww, owwww, owwwww". SO HARD! i just want to wave my magic mommy wand and make it all better! only time will tell! i am praying that each day will get better, and that sweet Jesus will give me amazing patience and strength! here's the picture as promised. i did get creative and sew her teddy a sling too. m

8 comments:

kinsey said...

i have tears rolling down my cheeks reading this! i so wish i was close enough to just stop by to see yall. i'll be praying for both of you! and i LOVE that you made her teddy a sling...so something your sweet heart would think of, and mine never would ;-)

TEAMMA said...

thats super sweet that you made teddy a sling too--i hope she heals fast and i hope you do ok as she does :) i know its hard on us mommy's/nurse's :)

Anonymous said...

Oh that is so sad! She looks adorable and smiley as usual i the pic. Hang on - you are in the Home Stretch. By the way, I miss you...and I have a thank you note for our yummy Mexican that I have yet to mail. Hopefully I will see you soon?!?!

Anonymous said...

By the way, I had no clue you could sew, you Betty Homemaker! (:

Having It All said...

Mimi! I am SO sorry. Little thing! And look, she is still smiling. God WILL give you the strength you need, and I know you need an extra dose of it now. I will be praying for you all.

Kimberly said...

of course you fixed teddy up like bug! you're one of a kind mommy! if you need anything while you're both broken, let me know and creighton and i will come running. until then, we'll be praying for a quick recovery and creative activities to fill your days until then. all our love-

autumnesf said...

Poor Mommy! Hang in there!

Emily K. said...

That is so hard! You are such a good mom and so cute that you made her teddy a sling. I hope she feels better soon.